November 14th, 2006
There are still no rumors, so I'd like to take this opportunity to talk a little about expectations.
I've read blogs of people who are home and who are miserable.
I've read about recent disruptions.
And I've read posts from people on various groups and blogs that talk about their new child as if they really think the child hates them, and some of them sound like they are starting to hate their child.
So I feel I need to talk a little bit about what happens when you finally get this screaming little baby placed in your arms.
This is not a newborn. It's a child who already has a personality, one that you get to try to figure out. It's a child who has been ripped from all she knows: the people who have cared for her and kept her alive, and the language she has been able to understand even if she couldn't speak it. The food she is used to. The other kids. Her schedule. Her crib. Her crib-mate.
It's all gone, and she's with these people she's never seen before and she can't understand what is being said and the food is different. Scared and grieving does not even begin to describe things. Some babies just completely shut down and appear to be autistic, but after three or four days they start coming around and you begin to see the real child. It can take weeks (or months) for the grieving to stop, but after several days you should begin to see little pieces of their personality. Some children have different survival mechanisms and you'll immediately see a little bubbly personality, this does not mean there is no grief, it could just mean that their survival instincts are telling them to be cute and lovable.
We all know this transition to a family is for the best in the long run, but all the child knows is how they feel right now, and they are scared and mad and grieving. Some move through it faster than others. Some seem to move through it in China and then backtrack once they are home. Some show their bubbly personality in China and then show the grief in America (or whatever country they are going to).
When you are in China they still hear Chinese in the restaurants and out on the street. And they still get some Chinese food. And the unique smells of China are still there.
But once you are home everything familiar to them is gone. By then you've probably switched them to American formula, they likely aren't getting congee every morning now that it's not on a buffet anymore, you probably can't make steamed eggs exactly like they were in China. The smells are different, and no one is speaking Chinese anymore.
They might be able to keep their minds off of that during the day, when they are active and there is much to keep them occupied. But when their mind starts quieting down to go to sleep it all comes back, and there is still grief. So some babies just don't go to sleep. Combine this with jet lag and it's really not fun.
There will also be control issues that come up. Even with a 9 or 10 month old baby, they will try to gain control of something, anything, so they don't feel so out of control. Maybe you can let them have it in some instances, but in others you'll need to make sure you remain in control. Follow your instincts on this one - they need boundaries in order to feel safe, but letting them have some little piece of control may also help them. How do you know when it's best to give in and when it's best to be the parent? You just fly by the seat of your pants and hope you get it right.
My point here is that you have been waiting for this child for a really long time. But she knows nothing about you. She is scared and will act in ways you cannot currently imagine that a little 15 or 20 pound baby could possibly act.
I can remember getting so upset with my big girl when she was a toddler and into everything. I'd just pick her up and take her outside and put her in her swing and push her in it for a really long time. Before long we were both laughing and having fun. It worked for us.
Sometimes, when she was into everything, I'd load her up and take her to the park with a few toys and put a blanket down on the ground and then let her play that way. She only had the handful of toys I brought, and all I had to do was make sure she didn't put rocks or bugs or anything in her mouth (because of her sensory issues she wouldn't touch such things with her hands, but she had no problems picking them up in her mouth). She never wanted to wander far from me when we were in public, so this worked out well since I didn't have to worry about her running off.
So many times I just realized we were into a pattern of her doing something and me correcting her, and I just needed to do something to break the pattern.
I also put her in her highchair with finger foods and rolled the highchair into the bathroom and took a shower. We put a clear shower curtain up so she could see me and so I could keep an eye on her.
My big girl was terrified of being alone. Even today, unless she is asleep she is rarely in a room by herself. But when we were first home with her, before I went back to work, this meant she and I were together 24 hours a day, every single day (she slept in our room, too, back then). Once my husband was home she expected us to all stay in the same room together, and for those first months, she ran the show when it came to things like that.
I see people who are talking about how happy their child is going to be to finally get a family. And that just isn't the way it works. I see a lot of people setting themselves up for problems by having expectations that just aren't very likely to happen.
Please, take this time to read about attachment. Not just attachment issues, but attachment in general - how attachment happens, red flags that attachment may not be happening, and ideas for how to foster attachment.
Also read about sensory issues and other things that may pop up in post-institutionalized babies and children. Please understand that if you have the “What to expect the first year” book that your 10 month old baby may not be doing what your book says a four month old baby should be doing. This is completely normal, and most children catch up at an amazing speed. The rule of thumb I've always heard is that babies develop one month for every three months they are institutionalized - so a nine month old baby will have the developmental skills of a three month old, an 18 month old baby may only have the developmental skills of a 6 month old. If they are in foster care or a HTS orphanage then they will likely be farther along.
Understand that your child may have been strapped into a potty chair for hours a day, and laid in the crib for most of the rest of the day. Of course they are not going to have the developmental skills appropriate for their age.
Understand that your baby may have been gravity fed and may have never learned how to suck. She may not be capable of drinking from a normal bottle. You may spend months just getting her to the point that she can suck from a bottle - and those sucking muscles are important before she can learn to talk, it's all related.
And please understand that this is why Half the Sky is my favorite charity. If your child is from a Half the Sky orphanage then the odds are that they will be very close to being on target developmentally, and that they will not have sensory issues. There are still a lot of other things that can pop up, but these two things should be on target.
I'm not saying the first couple of months are going to be all bad. There will be wonderful moments, too. But I am hoping to get the point across that you need to be prepared for some difficult times. No matter how frustrated you are, at least you know what is going on. It's your job to comfort this child when she is scared and grieving and screaming her little head off from 11:00 at night until 4:00 in the morning almost non stop. It's your job to make her (or him) feel safe and loved. And that is not always an easy thing to do.
~~> Another gal posted in this response section - really sums it up: One more note for new parents: You will get through the adjustment period. Just keep thinking about all of us parents going back for baby #2.
(11-14-2006: Note from Kimberly: I read RQ daily, if not more. She is often spot-on on things adoption-related. There is rarely a day that goes by that I don't learn something new, either from her blog posting or something on the message board that she so kindly (and generously!) hosts for adoptive parents. Her site has been a real source of support for me during our wait. I hope that everyone takes a few moments and reads this post (especially this one, but really, all of them!). For those family and friends that are part of our daily life, this information will be indispensable. kms)
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